Well I have not written a journal in here for some time. I have been occupied with many different things, also one of being away for 2 weeks in cyprus.
I have lost touch with my poetry and with my life it seems, it is getting harder to stand strong for my partner, as he wavers in many ways, also including the spirit. But when it wavers near his faith for us, all the things I do for him and I, and every little thing I do or think about almost always involves a thought for him, crashes down on me, and my strength just withers away into nothing and I breakdown. I don't like to admit this is taking some strain on my head and my heart, but I love him. I do, it all just seems worth it in the end, it's so difficult to explain to myself nevermind anyone else. But I seem somewhat content, if not simply composed enough to hold it together, even if in great distress through the short lapses that he loses everything, faith and control.

I am going to see how my hand learns and takes to sketching and painting soon, one of the ventures I have wanted to take for a while now. I should get my head level enough to get round to it soon, need to hit some inspiration though and that is for my poetry as well. I need to put myself in front of paper and see if I can mould myself back into the habit again. I do miss it.

Shhhh... still my sheep!

xxx Regards Fizz. xxx